Our first "see you later"

Well, Ben left yesterday.. It was seriously such a horrible feeling. I was trying soo hard not to cry the whole time... A bunch of friends came out to see him off.. (which was really an awesome thing) and we were all standing at the shuttle that takes him to the airport and talking and hanging out for the last time.. Next thing you know they were doing last call to get on the bus... Ben came up to me gave me the best hug ever and lots of kisses and told me he loves me very much. :)
then, walked away. When he let go of me I lost it. It was like I literally was watching my heart walk away. After that, everything was a blur. Him getting on the bus and the bus leaving I don't even remember.. I just know that it happened sooo quickly. And while I didn't like that, I'm so glad it happened fast... So I walked away and was headed to my car, when I started crying even more...
After this, we went to chilis with the friends who showed up. Chelsea and I didn't eat, I had no appetite what so ever.. Then beth showed us this AMAZING shoe store (which is always the best therapy) the shoe store was pretty dang awesome.. All the shoes were pretty cheap and it was just what I needed to find. So thanks Beth :)
Then I went home, and took a nap. Then I went to Wendy's house and spent the night over there. Night time seems to be the worst. It was fun hanging out with some friends and watching all of our dogs playing together and just chit chatting.

Then tonight, my friend Heather is sleeping over and were ganna have a girls night to get our mind off of everything.. Her husband left today, to go the same
Place as Ben is.. Which is pretty cool.

But yeah, all in all I'm good, it honestly hasn't hit me yet... I don't feel like he is gone, I feel like maybe he is on a tdy or he's at work or something... The e
Tears come and go, and I'm beyond emotional with all of this, but I'll be okay, and Ben wi be okay. And as long as we have eachother, and keep busy, everything will be just fine :) I love him and miss him so much!


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